"We were written in the stars, my love,
all that separated us, was time, the time it took
to read the map which was placed within our hearts,
to find our way back to one another."
Sunday, May 16, 2010
After reading Sumiko Tan's column in The Sunday Times today, I realised that I have cherophobia, that is, fear of happiness. I strive for happiness, yet I am afraid when it comes knocking on my door. How ironic.
Quoting from her article, "A character in a Japanese movie once said that humans are cowards in the face of happiness. It takes courage to hold on to happiness. Courage - and the ability to conquer your fear and take a leap into the great unknown."
Am I ready to face my fears and stop being an escapist? Am I ready to take a road less travelled?
At the same time, I find myself standing at the same crossroads of my life again, thinking about my career, my future. Is this what I really want? I know I have to make my decision fast, and not be wishy-washy about it. What my sis said does hold some truth; if i want to quit, I must do so fast. If I drag any longer, it will be tough for me to get out of it.
It all boils down to:
What do I really want to do, to be, and to have? It's time to face the truth and search my heart for the answer. Iris, you can!
On another note, I miss Japan so much. I want to be back there again, to view the cherry blossoms, to bask in the cool weather, and most of all, to savour the lovely spread of authentic Jap cuisine. Next year, perhaps? (:
May be for the most part, nothing lasts forever.
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♥ The Laydee ♥
Iris
20041987
Loves shopping, travelling, having good reads, watching sunsets and small animals
