Thursday, February 25, 2010
"Most folks are about as happy as they make up their minds to be." ~ Abraham Lincoln
Sounds easy huh? But I'm still struggling with this every day.
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Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Confusion.
I don't know what I want.
I don't know how I feel.
I don't know if I'm being fooled.
I don't know how to be myself anymore.
I don't know who I am anymore.
I don't know if what I'm typing makes any sense at all.
Being an escapist is always so much easier than having to confront your fears and insecurities.
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Tuesday, February 23, 2010
As much as I want to be optimistic about it, I've decided to resign to my fate.
I'm tired of waiting, hoping, and wishing, for I know very well that it will never happen. May be not in this lifetime.
This feels like deja vu. Oh wells, it happened before and I have survived it. So I'm pretty sure I'll be able to overcome this little inner struggle again - and for many more to come.
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Sunday, February 21, 2010
It sure sucks to be sick. I have no mood whatsoever to do anything - eat, watch tv, read newspapers, etc. (except for blogging, I guess. =P) Let's see, the last time I fell sick was days before the commencement of internship. And with just a week away from the end of attachment, my nose is leaking like a running tap. Blah. May I recover fast.
This feeling has got to go because it's driving me insane.
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Saturday, February 20, 2010
You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full of wrong
You're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely
To the other side
You said it again
My heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watchin' the shadows burnin' in the dark
And I-I-I'm in love (I'm in love)
And I-I-I'm terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life, life
~"Terrified" by Kara Dioguardi
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Monday, February 15, 2010
Tired. Lost. Unmotivated. Feels ugly inside. Prefers to be alone and not be disturbed. Loathes how she is living her life now. Wonders if she has been shooting for the right star after all these while. Needs to get a renewed perspective FAST. Wishes she could sleep all her worries and fears away.
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Saturday, February 13, 2010
“The stars and the planets will guide you but it’s your heart that’ll show you the way when you get there. Trust the sky. Trust yourself.”
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Thursday, February 11, 2010
I'm looking forward to the long weekend - away from work and colleagues for a few days. I need to get my sanity back.
On another note, I have so much thoughts to share, but whenever I find the time to sit down in front of my computer to blog, my eyes will be very tired. Blah.
More updates after March the 3rd, I promise! :D
13 more days Iris! :D
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Wednesday, February 3, 2010
I "love" my monotonous life:
Wake up -> Go to work -> Work like there's no tomorrow -> Go home -> Sleep -> Wake up....and the routine continues on and on...
I need a Life.
I wish you hadn't choose to let go. Because I chose not to.
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Tuesday, February 2, 2010
On some days, I feel like quitting. While on others, I thought to myself "Hey, this isn't really that bad afterall." (or may be I've already gotten used to the workload and expectations.)
It's so easy to reject the offer - to say, "No thanks." But what am I left with if I were to do so? Nothing. I have to go through the ardous process of searching for an ideal job all over again.
To be honest, I'm not happy at work. But I'm holding on. Afterall, this is part and parcel of growing up, right? To cringe and bear with whatever life throws at you, or for this matter, at whatever my boss throws at me.
I will survive! Jiayou Iris. YOU CAN. :D
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