Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Why am i avoiding you?
Why am i running away from you?
Why do i feel uneasy in your presence?
What is it about you that i'm afraid of?
I long to engage in meaningful conversations with a certain someone. It's been months since i am able to do so. I love how heart-to-heart talks always makes me feel at ease because i can freely provide my views on the topic discussed, without having to worry whether what i've shared will be negatively judged by the other party. Furthermore, it's always nice to listen to another person's perspective as it makes me think deeper and broad-mindedly.
Then again, perhaps laughing out real loud is the best way to conceal my emotions now.
It's time to read myself to sleep again. Pathetic i know. Wan an all.
Why am i avoiding you?
Why am i running away from you?
Why do i feel uneasy in your presence?
What is it about you that i'm afraid of?
I long to engage in meaningful conversations with a certain someone. It's been months since i am able to do so. I love how heart-to-heart talks always makes me feel at ease because i can freely provide my views on the topic discussed, without having to worry whether what i've shared will be negatively judged by the other party. Furthermore, it's always nice to listen to another person's perspective as it makes me think deeper and broad-mindedly.
Then again, perhaps laughing out real loud is the best way to conceal my emotions now.
It's time to read myself to sleep again. Pathetic i know. Wan an all.
♥ ♥ ♥
Saturday, March 28, 2009
I reckon the library would be a more conductive place to do my readings as compared to my humble abode - away from the potential distractions of tv, internet, and most importantly, my bed!
I reckon the library would be a more conductive place to do my readings as compared to my humble abode - away from the potential distractions of tv, internet, and most importantly, my bed!
♥ ♥ ♥
Friday, March 27, 2009
I seriously need to curb my spending. It's getting way out of hand. I wonder if I spend so incessantly for the sake of dressing myself up or my insecurities. Either way, rampant shopping has to go.
Night classes are tiring me out. Perhaps i'm not used to them yet. Owells, I hope i do so soon.
Meanwhile i need to remind myself that the following activities are awaiting for me to accomplish during the weekend:
- Law readings
- Chinese civilzation readings
- Dozens of e-mails to follow-up with
- Laundry and ironing
- Exercise (I miss the beach!)
I shall begin with law readings then! Enjoy the weekend! :D
Sometimes, sleep is the only form of short-term escapism. I know it's pathetic to view life so negatively, but it's the sad truth.
I seriously need to curb my spending. It's getting way out of hand. I wonder if I spend so incessantly for the sake of dressing myself up or my insecurities. Either way, rampant shopping has to go.
Night classes are tiring me out. Perhaps i'm not used to them yet. Owells, I hope i do so soon.
Meanwhile i need to remind myself that the following activities are awaiting for me to accomplish during the weekend:
- Law readings
- Chinese civilzation readings
- Dozens of e-mails to follow-up with
- Laundry and ironing
- Exercise (I miss the beach!)
I shall begin with law readings then! Enjoy the weekend! :D
Sometimes, sleep is the only form of short-term escapism. I know it's pathetic to view life so negatively, but it's the sad truth.
♥ ♥ ♥
Monday, March 23, 2009
Morrie stresses the importance of giving back. He does not simply say we must learn to love, but stresses that we must learn to both give out love and learn to take it in. Furthermore, he explains that obtaining material wealth will never bring true happiness. In fact, the only way to be truly happy is by giving what we have – not only tangibles such as money for charity – but also our emotions, time, and efforts. These intangibles are priceless, the embodiment of what he considers a meaningful existence.
"Tuesdays with Morrie", taken from Wikipedia
I realized i have not been paying much attention to giving these intangibles - my emotions, time and efforts to those that matter. I should do so now.
School commences tomorrow. I will find joy amidst all the busy-ness. Come what may.
Morrie stresses the importance of giving back. He does not simply say we must learn to love, but stresses that we must learn to both give out love and learn to take it in. Furthermore, he explains that obtaining material wealth will never bring true happiness. In fact, the only way to be truly happy is by giving what we have – not only tangibles such as money for charity – but also our emotions, time, and efforts. These intangibles are priceless, the embodiment of what he considers a meaningful existence.
"Tuesdays with Morrie", taken from Wikipedia
I realized i have not been paying much attention to giving these intangibles - my emotions, time and efforts to those that matter. I should do so now.
School commences tomorrow. I will find joy amidst all the busy-ness. Come what may.
♥ ♥ ♥
Saturday, March 21, 2009
I witnessed hope today. Thank you for gracing across the sky, pretty rainbow! You made my otherwise mundane day seemed brighter!
Thank you love for everything! There's never a dull moment in my life when you're around. :D
There's roughly about 2 more months before you return to our arms. I will be waiting patiently for that day to arrive. We will reunite in love soon. (:
I witnessed hope today. Thank you for gracing across the sky, pretty rainbow! You made my otherwise mundane day seemed brighter!
Thank you love for everything! There's never a dull moment in my life when you're around. :D
There's roughly about 2 more months before you return to our arms. I will be waiting patiently for that day to arrive. We will reunite in love soon. (:
♥ ♥ ♥
It's the start of a brand new day! (Yes i just woke up. =P) But why do i feel like lazing in bed the whole day with BB and simply not having a care in this world? Sigh, i'm such an escapist. But wouldn't it be nice once in a long while to just escape from the harsh realities of life? Right Iris.
There are readings to be done, e-mails to be replied, job applications to be sent out, and meetings to be attended and the list goes on and on for the next 15 weeks.
I'd better set my priorities right and get down to work asap!
Mi-an-eh-yo. You know i never meant to hurt you.
♥ ♥ ♥
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Words should not be hurtful. Use it to say I love you.
This I must keep in mind.
Words should not be hurtful. Use it to say I love you.
This I must keep in mind.
♥ ♥ ♥
It's always nice to blast the music. Then you slowly immerse yourself into the melodious tune and just pause for a moment to relish everything about the song and perhaps use this time to reflect about your life thus far. You may even want to put the song on repeat, then you begin the whole cycle all over again.
I can't explain how I feel today. Perhaps the lack of 10 hours of sleep the night before has caused me to feel a little moody beneath the laughters and cheery-ness. I guess i'm just really tired. I'm tired of playing the guessing and waiting game and I wonder why i even bother with such an issue in the first place. I must be out of my mind. It has to be. Enough Iris, enough already. This feeling has got to go.
I WANT AWAY. 3 weeks is definitely not enough for me to recollect my thoughts. (Yes, i'm being greedy here) What's worse is that i'm left with 4 days of freedom before the commencement of yet another hellish semester - one filled with never-ending schoolwork, projects, meetings, follow-up emails, etc. =(
A series of random thoughts all stringed together in a post again.
If only the stars had the answers.
♥ ♥ ♥
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Receiving your call at this late hour really made my day! I'm grinning from ear to ear now! =) =) =) =) =) Being able to hear your voice makes me feel all warm inside my heart. I think i will be able to sleep very soundly tonight.
The wonders of a 12 minutes phonecall.
Goodnight everyone!
Receiving your call at this late hour really made my day! I'm grinning from ear to ear now! =) =) =) =) =) Being able to hear your voice makes me feel all warm inside my heart. I think i will be able to sleep very soundly tonight.
The wonders of a 12 minutes phonecall.
Goodnight everyone!
♥ ♥ ♥
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
This version of "Your Call" by Secondhand Serenade is mind-blowing, OH-MY-GOD superbly good! I especially love the part towards the end, where the melody reaches an awesome climax and it begins to get louder. At the same time, the song slowly builds your emotions, making you understand and 'feel' for John's heartfelt singing. Afterwhich, his voice softens and the song is brought to a closure.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pd_xOoq471w&feature=related
John's voice is just amazing. It's almost comparable to Jason Wade's (lead singer of Lifehouse). But I think i still prefer Jason's voice to John's. I haven't heard another better singer other than Jason who can intensely capture the emotions of each song and accurately convey the meaning of them through his heartfelt voice. You know those songs that sends a chill down your spine cos' the singer's voice is just damn good? Yes, that's how Jason always makes me feel when i listen to his songs. Simply remarkable. =)
This version of "Your Call" by Secondhand Serenade is mind-blowing, OH-MY-GOD superbly good! I especially love the part towards the end, where the melody reaches an awesome climax and it begins to get louder. At the same time, the song slowly builds your emotions, making you understand and 'feel' for John's heartfelt singing. Afterwhich, his voice softens and the song is brought to a closure.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pd_xOoq471w&feature=related
John's voice is just amazing. It's almost comparable to Jason Wade's (lead singer of Lifehouse). But I think i still prefer Jason's voice to John's. I haven't heard another better singer other than Jason who can intensely capture the emotions of each song and accurately convey the meaning of them through his heartfelt voice. You know those songs that sends a chill down your spine cos' the singer's voice is just damn good? Yes, that's how Jason always makes me feel when i listen to his songs. Simply remarkable. =)
♥ ♥ ♥
Sunday, March 15, 2009
慢慢的 這份愛悄悄的住下來
深深的 在心裡沒人看的出來
安靜的 但卻一直都在是你默默的愛
Standing alone in the vast poppy field,
she kneels down to smell the scents those pretty little things give off.
"How beautiful," she smiles to herself and continues to take in more whiffs.
Getting back on her feet again,
she glances around,
looking for something or someone.
But all she sees is a sea of colorful poppies swaying gently in the breeze - white, pink, yellow, orange, red and blue - that seem to be smiling at her.
Alone she stands in the poppy field,
she stretches out her arms and closes her eyes,
taking in every smell, sound, touch, and taste that is present in her surroundings.
She stood there in the fields, with eyes closed and arms outstrectched, enjoying every moment of being in the present.
"I'm so blessed," she whispers into the wind - unperturbed that in the west, dusk is beckoning.
慢慢的 這份愛悄悄的住下來
深深的 在心裡沒人看的出來
安靜的 但卻一直都在是你默默的愛
Standing alone in the vast poppy field,
she kneels down to smell the scents those pretty little things give off.
"How beautiful," she smiles to herself and continues to take in more whiffs.
Getting back on her feet again,
she glances around,
looking for something or someone.
But all she sees is a sea of colorful poppies swaying gently in the breeze - white, pink, yellow, orange, red and blue - that seem to be smiling at her.
Alone she stands in the poppy field,
she stretches out her arms and closes her eyes,
taking in every smell, sound, touch, and taste that is present in her surroundings.
She stood there in the fields, with eyes closed and arms outstrectched, enjoying every moment of being in the present.
"I'm so blessed," she whispers into the wind - unperturbed that in the west, dusk is beckoning.
♥ ♥ ♥
Friday, March 13, 2009
If i can choose to know anything, i would choose to know nothing at all. Ignorance is sure pure bliss.
And i should not be quick to jump to conclusions unnecessary. Perhaps there is more to it than meets the eyes or ears.
Think broad-mindedly Iris.
If i can choose to know anything, i would choose to know nothing at all. Ignorance is sure pure bliss.
And i should not be quick to jump to conclusions unnecessary. Perhaps there is more to it than meets the eyes or ears.
Think broad-mindedly Iris.
♥ ♥ ♥
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
I need to rest more and attempt to sleep earlier. My eyebags are getting larger by the minute. Despite the fact that half of my 3 weeks holidays flew past with the blink of an eye, i still have lots of school-related stuff to do. Bleh. Well, i guess i'm just being plain lazy and i have been procrastinating since holidays commenced.
While on the topic of uncountable things to do, i'm still very undecided on my internship. I haven't sent in my job application to the two IRs. Sure, working in the IRs does seem enticing, but do i really want to work there? I don't know. I haven't searched my heart for the answer. I don't know what i want to be, where i want to go from here, what i want to do in the future. I'm super confused and my future looks bleak.
I guess it's time i get serious with regards to my future and ask myself, "WHERE IRIS, WHERE? WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF 3-5 YEARS DOWN THE ROAD?" I need to search hard for that drive within me and get back on track as soon as possible. Buck up Iris! Time is running out.
I do hope i will have these answers soon. Jiayou Iris! And jiayou everyone - those who are going through a rough patch now, be it at home, at school, at work or in relationships. JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU! :D
I wonder if i would have the courage to pursue my happiness when the time comes.
I need to rest more and attempt to sleep earlier. My eyebags are getting larger by the minute. Despite the fact that half of my 3 weeks holidays flew past with the blink of an eye, i still have lots of school-related stuff to do. Bleh. Well, i guess i'm just being plain lazy and i have been procrastinating since holidays commenced.
While on the topic of uncountable things to do, i'm still very undecided on my internship. I haven't sent in my job application to the two IRs. Sure, working in the IRs does seem enticing, but do i really want to work there? I don't know. I haven't searched my heart for the answer. I don't know what i want to be, where i want to go from here, what i want to do in the future. I'm super confused and my future looks bleak.
I guess it's time i get serious with regards to my future and ask myself, "WHERE IRIS, WHERE? WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF 3-5 YEARS DOWN THE ROAD?" I need to search hard for that drive within me and get back on track as soon as possible. Buck up Iris! Time is running out.
I do hope i will have these answers soon. Jiayou Iris! And jiayou everyone - those who are going through a rough patch now, be it at home, at school, at work or in relationships. JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU! :D
I wonder if i would have the courage to pursue my happiness when the time comes.
♥ ♥ ♥
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
OMG the renovation works at my block and the next is driving me CRAZY. I was woken up by the sounds of drilling and hacking of walls at 9.30am this morning. How infuriating! Grrrrrrrr.
If this continues, i might consider leaving home in the day and coming back in the night. BAH.
OMG the renovation works at my block and the next is driving me CRAZY. I was woken up by the sounds of drilling and hacking of walls at 9.30am this morning. How infuriating! Grrrrrrrr.
If this continues, i might consider leaving home in the day and coming back in the night. BAH.
♥ ♥ ♥
I think i like you this way better.
You should have been like this from the very beginning.
But why is it i feel something's amiss about you?
Well, some matters are worth pursuing, digging deep within yours and others' souls for the truth.
As much as i want to know the truth, i don't have the courage to do so and i don't think i'm in the right position to question you on this.
I should just let the matter rest, let everything go.
Then again, I may be thinking way too much on my part.
♥ ♥ ♥
Saturday, March 7, 2009
I'm going to read myself to sleep tonight. Perhaps i will start with a fiction book, and if the storyline gets too exciting that i cannot put the book down, i shall turn to my two "Intro to Chinese Civilization" texts to take me to lalaland FAST. Blah. I haven't even attended one lesson of that subject and i'm already giving it a thumbs-down. What negative thoughts Iris. Tsk Tsk.
And i just realised, besides helping me to lose weight, jogging is a great way to de-stress. :D
You're such a joke, seriously. Nothing but a joke.
I'm going to read myself to sleep tonight. Perhaps i will start with a fiction book, and if the storyline gets too exciting that i cannot put the book down, i shall turn to my two "Intro to Chinese Civilization" texts to take me to lalaland FAST. Blah. I haven't even attended one lesson of that subject and i'm already giving it a thumbs-down. What negative thoughts Iris. Tsk Tsk.
And i just realised, besides helping me to lose weight, jogging is a great way to de-stress. :D
You're such a joke, seriously. Nothing but a joke.
♥ ♥ ♥
Friday, March 6, 2009
Nice song! :D
想跟我吵架 我没那麽无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那麽聪明
好想要回到我们的原点
你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰
我又在摇头 有那麽点後悔
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走
但身不由己出现在胸口 两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好
~心跳 by 王力宏~
Web-caming with Sf has never made me feel happier. =) It was just like reliving the good old days of endless chats, except that we're both in different timezones now. Anyhows, it was really good seeing and chatting with her. Despite the session being a rather short one (well at least to me it was =P), i was contented already. (:
On another note, I want to get in touch with nature, fiction books, my inner thoughts and I need to face up to reality.
Nice song! :D
想跟我吵架 我没那麽无聊
不懂得道歉 我没那麽聪明
好想要回到我们的原点
你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰
我又在摇头 有那麽点後悔
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走
但身不由己出现在胸口 两颗心能塞几个问号
爱让我们流多少眼泪
你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起
那悬在记忆中的美好
~心跳 by 王力宏~
Web-caming with Sf has never made me feel happier. =) It was just like reliving the good old days of endless chats, except that we're both in different timezones now. Anyhows, it was really good seeing and chatting with her. Despite the session being a rather short one (well at least to me it was =P), i was contented already. (:
On another note, I want to get in touch with nature, fiction books, my inner thoughts and I need to face up to reality.
♥ ♥ ♥
Monday, March 2, 2009
I need to step out of my comfort zone and explore the various options that are available for me.
The phrase here is "Step out of my comfort zone."
I know i need to do so sooner or later.
But i simply can't envisage myself doing so.
Have courage, Iris.
You can.
And you need to.
You can! You can! You can!
I need to step out of my comfort zone and explore the various options that are available for me.
The phrase here is "Step out of my comfort zone."
I know i need to do so sooner or later.
But i simply can't envisage myself doing so.
Have courage, Iris.
You can.
And you need to.
You can! You can! You can!
♥ ♥ ♥
