Monday, December 10, 2007
Was i meant to hear that conversation?
So that I realised how close I was to you at that point in time?
Bleh. I guess life's that ironic sometimes.
So near...yet so far.
I act as if I'm not bothered.
But in fact, I am..
I am very, very, very bothered.
I know I should be slapped for thinking this way,
and for wallowing myself into it YET AGAIN!
BLAH. But i can't help myself sometimes.
And, what's "er...er" supposed to mean?
WHEN WILL YOU EVER HAVE ANY GUTS?
In that case, what is the reason for sending me those out-of-the-blue e-mails?
What is the reason for adding me?
WHAT IS IT?
Doesn't that mean that you want to keep in touch?
And yet you still have no guts to speak to me!
Sometimes i loathe myself for thinking too much,
and reading into these little actions too much.
I should put a stop to everything now.
I should banish those childish thoughts.
I really should.
I'm wasting my time.
If I'm not the one you want or wish to talk to,
then PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE!
I'm better off without you, seriously.